What on earth makes a sociologist with a stimulating job to change carrier and work intuitively with energy medicine? It was not part of my plan, honestly. Of course, even before the life crisis that came to be the game changer, I had a strong sense of the spiritual dimension. My love for animals, especially horses, also taught me about communicating with enery transmissons rather than words.

After esoteric searching in my teen years I more or less shut down my sixth sense, like most people do. My focus was on my two children and my job as a project manager. I also wanted to change the world. The climate crisis and societal crises led me to a long-term political commitment. But then, something happened that had happened to many before me. I had a stress reaction due to too high expectations of myself for many years. In 2016, the universe pushed me into a new direction.

  It was like a blackout. I was at work when from one second to the next, I no longer understood what to do. There were papers in front of me, but I did not know what to do with them. I had phone calls I was going to make, but I did not know what to say. The whole world rocked, as if I was seasick. I was really terrified. I rested for a week and then came back to work, but now as a shadow of myself. The stress reaction led me to a loss of the psychological and energy defenses that I, partly unconsciously, had built up to protect myself from my openness to the energy of others. I was skinless in combination with difficulty concentrating and mobilizing power for ordinary problem solving. I could burst into tears for nothing, in the middle of meetings. I no longer understood how to relate to other people. It was like being invaded by impressions and no longer understanding where I left off and others started. 

  Worse than antything was the despair and feeling that I was about to lose myself and thus also my family of wife and two children. And whatever I did in terms of priorities and recovery, I could not regain my energy. So I was at the end of the road. I was in a mental abyss. There was no chance for me to climb out of it, nor someone to pull me up. I knew that "now I cannot stand another day. Tomorrow I will not be able to get out of bed". That night I prayed. "If there really is a God, I need help now. I give up, I can't struggle no longer." I had prayed before, but this was the first time I did it with 100 percent intenton with every single cell in my body. I had no choice but to surrender completely. Either there was a divine power that could help me or I would be finished. I had no expectations of the result, I just prayed for my life. 

  What happened next was that I got help. Over the next few days, a meeting took place with a spiritual energy that is difficult to describe in words. You can call it a mystic experience. Or a miracle. It gave strength to live on, and no matter what it was, it dispelled all previous doubts - there is a purpose to my life. For all life. It is no coincidence that we are on this journey. It was a revelation of understanding how everything is connected and my part in it all. 

It was an awakening too how divine energy can heal and a call from spirit that I should help others. I understood why I have had indescribable emotions and nightmares throughout my life. What I had not been able to get my head around finally got an explanation; I am an empath and experience energies in a different way. The initiation was followed by a 2 year long "dark night of the soul". During this time I met all my shadow sides and understood on a deeper level how I have affected others negatively, in this life and in memories from previous lives. It was a demanding soul searching with more mysterious experiences. I visited an astral reality much like heaven, but also an energy level quite like hell. Again and again, until I was reconciled to what is, and gained control of my power. Finally, the test was completed; I know had a transpersonal love consciousness (also called Buddha consciousness and Christ consciousness) and was ready to work with spirit. Energy medicin is given best if the donor herself is free from the ego's need for confirmation or illusions.

  During this initiation, I also explored wisdom traditions in Reiki, Shintoism, Shamanism, Taoism, Tibetan Buddhism and Christian gnosis. It has been an valuable support to get the help of ancient master, even though my own experiences have been the most important. It is not possible to copy someone else's spiritual transformation, everyone has to make their own journey. The analytical and academic side of me nevertheless likes to take a quantum physical and comparative perspective on spiritual experiences. Reality is ultimately subjective consciousness, but not by these means "shady". At GBG Reiki, we therefore do the courses a little differently. Everyone is considered capable of taking responsibility for their own enlightenment and that the truth is subjective. You get keys to new ways of thinking and portals to establish contact with the healing energies of the universe, but are encouraged to search for the cosmological truths within you. When you learn how to change your inside, you can change your whole world. When you walk on your own path of light, you also stand in your full power. 

  Supporting others in their spiritual journey has become a task that has chosen me, rather than me choosing it. All the darkness that I was exposed to and even carried on myself, turned out to be a powerful energy that can be turned into light. The denser the darkness in the dark night of the soul, the greater the potential for transformation. We all have within us to become walkers on the path of light, among stars and planets, and live with joy and gratitude for being right here. Right now. It is a magical journey for wisdom seekers. Are you ready to join in?